I told you i loved you,
did you love me back?
That day in the rain when i told you,
did you smile at me and sigh?
Did you say it back?
The details are just blurs in the back of my mind,
flaws in our beautiful masterpiece.
Deep down i know you never replied,
but this i never admitted to myself,
for fear of ruining the painting.
Pain is a funny thing....
Its always seems to come and go
When you least expect it,
and a million tears will flow,
You never think they will stop until WHOA!
its gone again,
That stabbing pain that wasn't your friend,
it is replaced by sonething else,
A feeling of anger and guilt and shame,
Something quite undescribable,
thats pain....
Life goes on, people change,
others make new friends,
but you, youre stuck in a time warp,
a childhood that never ends.
That independence you never had,
seems all too far away,
your voice and opinions restricted, your feelings pushed away.
Choices others have to make,
already made for you,
you've been told where you're going,
and what you have to do.
You never really learn, to stand on your own 2 feet,
when theres others there to lift you,
and your lifes purpose they will slowly defeat.
Why should i pretend,
to be someone i'm not?
why should i hade the true me,
to keep the fakers happy?
The real me doesn't bottle things up inside,
or allows others to get in my way.
All the outside influences in the world don't phase the real me,
just the other person that i always try to be.
Everyday tension seems to just...float away,
when i can be true to myself
and not care what others say.
It makes alot of difference,
when i can be with those friends,
that never cheat themselves,
they like me who who I am,
thats all that matters,
no need for pretence.
You, and your empty promises.
Stupid lies, hidden secrets.
the rush of anger i get inside,
when i see you.
You lie, you cheat me once again,
I can't believe i considered you a friend,
the sickness building up in me,
as every mystery is revealed,
every lie, every buried truth.
Every empty promise.
Life is like a movie
Short,Dramatic, unexpected
thats why you've got to sit up and pay attention,
because before you know it,
its gone,
and you never had the chance to enjoy it.
I can't express this deep sadness
hidden in the depths of my soul,
long lost in a sea of nervous
distraction.
Even the longest ladder or greatest
ocean cant compare,
to the sadness in my heart.
A sadness that cannot be mended,
only become bigger,
until the lonliness in your heart
is unbearable,You
can't hide it anymore.
And you just have to cry.
I can't express this deep sadness
hidden in the depths of my soul,
long lost in a sea of nervous
distraction.
Even the longest ladder or greatest
ocean cant compare,
to the sadness in my heart.
A sadness that cannot be mended,
only become bigger,
until the lonliness in your heart
is unbearable,You
can't hide it anymore.
And you just have to cry.
Life is like a movie
Short,Dramatic, unexpected
thats why you've got to sit up and pay attention,
because before you know it,
its gone,
and you never had the chance to enjoy it.
You, and your empty promises.
Stupid lies, hidden secrets.
the rush of anger i get inside,
when i see you.
You lie, you cheat me once again,
I can't believe i considered you a friend,
the sickness building up in me,
as every mystery is revealed,
every lie, every buried truth.
Every empty promise.
Why should i pretend,
to be someone i'm not?
why should i hade the true me,
to keep the fakers happy?
The real me doesn't bottle things up inside,
or allows others to get in my way.
All the outside influences in the world don't phase the real me,
just the other person that i always try to be.
Everyday tension seems to just...float away,
when i can be true to myself
and not care what others say.
It makes alot of difference,
when i can be with those friends,
that never cheat themselves,
they like me who who I am,
thats all that matters,
no need for pretence.
Life goes on, people change,
others make new friends,
but you, youre stuck in a time warp,
a childhood that never ends.
That independence you never had,
seems all too far away,
your voice and opinions restricted, your feelings pushed away.
Choices others have to make,
already made for you,
you've been told where you're going,
and what you have to do.
You never really learn, to stand on your own 2 feet,
when theres others there to lift you,
and your lifes purpose they will slowly defeat.
Pain is a funny thing....
Its always seems to come and go
When you least expect it,
and a million tears will flow,
You never think they will stop until WHOA!
its gone again,
That stabbing pain that wasn't your friend,
it is replaced by sonething else,
A feeling of anger and guilt and shame,
Something quite undescribable,
thats pain....
I told you i loved you,
did you love me back?
That day in the rain when i told you,
did you smile at me and sigh?
Did you say it back?
The details are just blurs in the back of my mind,
flaws in our beautiful masterpiece.
Deep down i know you never replied,
but this i never admitted to myself,
for fear of ruining the painting.
Current Residence: My Bedroom Print preference: Black and white Favourite genre of music: i dont have 1, i'm open to any kind of music MP3 player of choice: iPod, sony walkman Personal Quote: Groovy
Favourite Visual Artist
Rozi Kenderesi
Favourite Movies
The shawshank redemption
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Daughtry
Favourite Writers
Me XD lol not really sure, i appreciate anything that appeals to me
Heyy all!
Wow haven't updated this thing since MARCH!!!
I haven't got all that much to say,
except, i looooooooove it if you check out my new Devs annndddddddddd thats about it! ohh and this....
I Fear…
[ ] the dark
[x] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent at a young age
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[x] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
Total: 0
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[x] deep water
[x] snakes
[ ] silk
[ ] the ocean
[x] failure
[ ] success
[ ] lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] my boyf